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First Event :D

2011-04-24T12:24:00.002+08:00

There will be a post-exam event to celebrate the hard work of all of you during the exam period :)

The 1st prize is 7-days M4 desert, 2nd prize is 1-day M4 Desert, third prize is a P90 Jungle for one day. :) Good Luck To All For your EXAM!

2010-01-02T17:44:00.002+08:00

HI all, I think nobody reads this blog larh!!! Lol.
Who do write this for? dunnoe.
Its a brand new year, I wish that in this year, I would have a chance to be your guardian angel, to help you, to protect to you and to love you.
There's one day left before school reopens and I've not started my hw
How dumb is this?
Let me tell you my group of teachers for my class next year:
Mr Pu : Physics/ Form
Mr Lee: English
Mdm Yaw: Chem
Mrs Ooi: Co-spa
Mr Goh: Co- spa
Ms June Teng: p.e/ Co form
Ms Ng: Maths
Ms Kavitha: Geog

then chinese i forget le
Among this people, the teachers who i think is good are Mdm Yaw,erm, I think that's all.
Sian new year le why I so sad?
There's this song I really like!!!
Straight Through My Heart by BSB( Backstreetboys)

I really like you, Is a chance so rare?

2009-12-24T23:00:00.000+08:00

ITS X'MAS EVE!!!!
I went to buy some presents today!!!
lol...
TOday sibei sway!
come back tat time step on dog shit.
F***
lol
Anyways.
today is the first time i'm still online at 11pm
cool
so cool
lol
hope everyone out there has a fun christmas!!!

2009-12-22T19:30:00.002+08:00

Today, I had my first parkour experience.
Well, it was fun but I fell down once.
Let me intrduce to you Team FaE Parkour.
Consisting of:
Ziq
Mic
Nic
Darren.y
CY
LJ
RAMLAN

2009-12-21T18:37:00.002+08:00

{Love like this}
Its a nice song by SS501
ok, nvm.
Well today, I went for choir.
Kinda screwed up the whole thing.
Lols.
Abit distracted today.
Dunnoe why.
Haix. I still haven started on my holiday homework...
Someone save me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Then after choir, I went for lunch with Vivien, Adalia, Yuxin, Jing Wen, Yu Sheng.
lols. Vivien was picking out the mushroomies to eat...
Erh kinda wierd.
The rest I didn't really care what they were doing.
Then after that, we decided to go walk, and so Adalia and Yuxin Decided to pangseh us.
SO the four of us went to play basketball.
After that I went to buy bubbletea with Vivien, and Yu sheng and Jing wen, decided to pang seh.
So ended up me and Vivien went to take 189.
While walking to the bus-stop, I had the urge to grab her hand, but I didn't, luckily...
Luckily, I manage to realise I'm only her friend, not her stead.
If not I would be in trouble le. Lols.
Well, I still think about my mother sometimes.
I really hope people will cherish what they have now.
Don't keep on shouting at your mum or dad...
I really regret not being able to be a good boy to her.
I really regret not being able to do well in my studies to show her...
Nvm.
Whats gone is gone. No point crying over spilt milk.

2009-12-15T15:23:00.002+08:00

Today went for choir.
Today choir was about 5 people. practising.
While the others pangseh. lol
Then went to west mall. With Vivien and Jing wen.
They ate mos burger...
I still dont get wats so nice.
Then went down to bbtea shop with Vivien.
She got a strawberry milktea while I got a blue berry one.
Total was 3dollars.
lol
then we went walk walk
Well, jing wen went to cut his hair.
While me and Vivien went to some jewellry shop to get a pair of earrings.
not i get she got.
Then we went back to find JW.
His hair now very joke.
Damn cute one.
The back no hair one.lols
Then went to bus interchange to take bus. Sian so early go home.
Now going to dota!!! Bye

2009-12-13T19:50:00.002+08:00

Hi all, well.
Today was kinda slack.
PSP, then com, then TV.
Pretty much nothing.
Well.
There's choir on tuesday.
Planning to play bball then.
Wonder if people are interested.

2009-12-11T10:24:00.001+08:00

hi people just came back from genting.
Well, it was fun. Got gals keep looking at me. lols.
There super many chio bu de!!!
lols
Well, still thinking whether I should tell her.
Think its kinda stupid though.
It'll never happen the way I want it to.

2009-12-02T11:49:00.002+08:00

HI all.
The five days have passed.
The funeral is over.
I am starting to miss my mum.
I used to always do this.
MUMMY MUMMY. DIDI TAKE MY STUFF.
Lols.
Now that I look back.
There were somethings I didn't do well as a son.
During the wake.
The role I played was very important.
I am after all her eldest son.
I still think I should thank Vivien.
She came at the time I needed her most.
She didn't leave me to be.
She helped me up.
I also wanna thank my friends.
Especially, Darren Tan, Guang Yuan, Jing cong, Junheng, Yu Sheng, Winnie, Jermyn, Kuanyee, AND JANICE!!!.
lols.
I really hope everything will turn out well.
Every death means a new life.
I believe my mom will be better.

2009-11-29T11:41:00.003+08:00

I just lost my mother.
I miss her all so badly.
Sometimes, death comes quicker than life.
At this point of time, I really wish she was here with me.
I hope I can make it pass this wall.

2009-11-26T19:20:00.002+08:00

HI all.
Well.
Today. I had Choir!!!
lols.
Erm, well its like this,
today I played bball with Vivien, Yu Sheng, Jing Wen, Roy and Zheng Yang.
I ACCIDENTALLY.
I repeat.
ACCIDENATALLY.
Knocked into Vivien, resulting in a bump on her head and a crying airpork la. lols.
Well, I'm sorry vivien!!!
PAISEH@
T.T
so guilty.
lols
Sian la.
Nxt monday camp le. theory!!! die!!!

2009-11-21T20:01:00.002+08:00

It's a Saturday. 21st November 2009.
Well, I've asked a lot of people on their opinion.
Most of them think I should ask her once again.
I still fear rejection.
Even so, I will try to do it face to face when I have the chance.
Haiz...
She has taken over my mind.
All I see is her.
Everywhere.
1 day, I'll be her boyfriend.
then I'll marry her!!!
I hope I can do it!
I'll believe in myself once more.
This time, I'll succeed!!

2009-11-18T21:25:00.002+08:00

Just came back from camp!!! Arghh!!
Still aching all over.
lols
Had a fun time there.
Want to thank come people espcially the sec 3 com.
THEY MADE IT SO FUN!!!
lols
i didn't sleep till 4
I was vivien and yu sheng and janice and jing wen and jermyn at the netball court.
Actually, only me and yu sheng and vivien go up first.
LOLS. Viv was scared so she grabbed my hand.
lols
I ws also in the same group as her. lols
tats all. i think
i will post the pics when i have the time

2009-11-04T20:14:00.002+08:00

Hi all!!!
Today I learnt something valuable again.
Sometimes, when someone you care lets you down, you don't really get hurt.
To find someone you love is difficult.
To find someone that loves you as much as you love her is even harder.
Why must we humans make love so complicated and difficult.
If only it was as easy as learning abc, all of us would've found happiness.
When you find someone you truly love and she loves you,
treasure it, don't ever let go.
Love may only come as often as only one time.
What exactly is love for another person?
In my words, I think that it is to care, to help, to protect, to do whatever labour for her and expect no repay.
Maybe I haven't quite reached that level.
Regretting that I didn't cherish the times with you.
Living in a life of self denial.
Love is painful.
So is happiness.
If only I could go back in time.
To change things.
To salvage our relationship.
I will still love you no matter what.

2009-11-03T21:12:00.002+08:00

Sometimes in this world we have to face other people's comments.
Today I learnt that what you think of yourself is the most important.
Heck them. That's something important I have learnt from Winnie.
I think that when you know this. You'll have one less worry.
When you notice a comment or action made or done by a person, you truly care for that person.
Well.
Its soon going to be another year.
I'll miss all of you in 2E3.
I hope that I can be in the same class as all of you again next year.
I only hope she's not in the same class as me.
I only create trouble for her.
I give up.
Sometimes its hard to give up on someone you love.
But you know you must. What to do?

Maybe I'll just thank some people.
Thanks
Winnie- for always being there to give me advice.
Guang yuan- To let me hone my nipplelising skills.
Darren Tan- For being my best friend.
Yu sheng- For being as lame as me and laughing together with me at my lame jokes.
Yu min and Yong Shin- For being people that i bully.
Nathanael- for being the fun person that you are.
Kuan yee- For being my mama. LOLOL
Jia yu- For being the bullied. haha.

2009-10-25T14:27:00.002+08:00

5 more days till school ends!!!
Lets all countdown together!
Soon it will be another year.
Time flies so fast.
I met new people, good, bad, bitch, bastard.
All alike.
It's like deja vu.
Haha.
I just selected my subjects. I hope I won't be doing history again.
Haiz.
Lets all pray hard for me. LOL
Sarang ah nae.
lol.
When this year ends, I will again meet new people.
I hope this year will let me forget her.

2009-10-19T14:32:00.002+08:00

No more countdown.
No more emo-ing.
I'm STAYING.
But will this be a mistake?
Will it turn out to be a disaster?
Well, I would be staying for both the MTDC and BBSS choir.
That should be a good thing, right?
Hmmm, maybe I'll get presents for staying.
That's what Janice said.
Guang Yuan and Darren Tan also.
If not I'll use the force.
Thats stupid.
Still I'll keep on thinking of the good times we had, the two of us.

2009-10-15T21:34:00.002+08:00

Today, I learnt that I am not wanted in my choir neither and my wanted in school.
Haiz.
Today, Winnie told me she not coming le.
Next I found out that Janice was also not comin.
Nobody likes me.
Haiz.
What did I do in the first place?
And I thought you were my bs Janice.
Now I know you're like that.
Why do all of you have to destroy my last few days.
First it was Viv, now you, who's next?
I am so worthless to you people. And you told me you'll miss me.
Crap.
Its only for choir.
When love is gone, you have friendship, when you don't even have friendship, you are equal to crap.

2009-10-11T17:34:00.001+08:00

Hi...
So far, I have decided to go to sentosa but they think its too ex.
well. the next place i can think of is vivo city.
Well maybe thats the correct place. dunnoe la. then tml still going out. haiz
NO MONEY LE!!!

HI all humans

2009-10-10T18:27:00.002+08:00

Today, I learnt that to love someone truly, you must be willing to give anything, to do anything for her, even your life. I found out that even if its one-sided, I will not deter. Sometimes I wonder, will my love for her last, or will it just end about a year later. Some people tell me that 1 year its a feat but I think not. Everlasting love is the most true and sincere kind. Some people are moved. Some are not. She's the second kind. Sometimes, that is human nature. I have been thinking for quite some time. Time will show all. Whether I'm commited or not. To all. The world in me has ended a lng time ago.

Here's a few pics I took today on a giant pau or bao. Its quite cute la. There's also stupid pics of Yu sheng... lols Vids also.

22 days

2009-10-09T18:15:00.002+08:00

ONCE AGAIN, I have survived the horrible tortures of the EOY!!!
And I'm glad to announce that my last paper is on Monday!
I'm sure all of us must be very happy.
I think I'll pass the papers wth borderline marks only.
I want to go east coast park.!!!
nvm

so sian now.
saw the dnn/dpg today.
She so childish.
lols.

2009-10-08T20:50:00.002+08:00

HI ALL!!!
Well lets see.
23 days left.
Sometimes I still wonder if she's seeing all this.

Today.
Still Chionging art.
I thought the exam was on monday.
lolol.
let see what i drew.
Dragons, Dragons and more Dragons.
Stupid.
I can't think of anything else.
What should I do now?
So sian.
Perfect day to slack and exams totally ruined it.

Think I'll sleep at 10 or 11 tonight.
Haiz.
Nothing to write le.
LETS ALL ENJOY DRAWING
(if u wanna die)'
(go ahead)'

2009-10-07T16:48:00.002+08:00

24 days left.
I'm still not prepared.
I think if I died, I would feel better.
She did something today that made me sad.
Although she treats me as a friend only, I treat her more than a friend.
Can't believe she got someone I hated to tell me this.
'Stop sms-ing me'
Well, to other people, it may be alright, but to me, its like a bomb in my heart.

Lets see.
I still haven't done my revision for my science.
Still think I'll pass.

CAN'T WAIT FOR 14 OCTOBER
Well.
It's marking day on that day.
I wannna go East Coast Park.
Asking some of my Best Buddies along.
Then on Sat should be going out with best friend
I'm really afraid that I can't see her again after I leave.
The thing is she doesn't like me.
So my friends think its stupid to do this.
Lets see.
I follow her around.
If she doesn't go, I won't appear.
I lend her money but dont ask for return but ask for interest from friends. lols
I still remember once when I actually totally left her behind.
She actually showed me some concern. but that was like 1 sec.
Whats the point?
Well I think all humans are stupid.
Espcially me.
Living was a mistake.
Knowing her was a even worse mistake.
Joining choir to know her was also another mistake.

So many mistakes...
Haiz...

36 more days...

2009-09-24T20:40:00.000+08:00

I hope you understand that I don't really want to leave you. I can't bear to leave you. It hurts me at that thought that I will never see you again. I will remember you.

I think this song can depict what i'm feeling now,

Remember me by Mary.J.Blige feat T.I

please listen thx.

Soon i will be reading your blog everyday.
MUST UPDATE!!!
LOLs.
Today, i found out i meant a lot to you, but as a friend.
Lets all pray hard that my mom would change her mind.
I just want to be with you.
There's one thing i want you to do.
To always remember me.
Remember me as the idiot who loved you a lot.
The idiot who followed you around
The person who wanted you so much
The person who tried so hard to impress you but failed
The person who really loves you

The person who just wants you to say three words.

I never got to hear those three words.
It'll be a regret i will live with.
Others find it stupid to wait for you.
I don't.
I think its all worthwhile.
I managed to be a good friend of yours.
I managed to talk to you on the day you broke up with him.
I managed to leave you as a good friend and not something worse.
I managed to love you whole-heartily.

The course of true love never did run smooth-Shakespeare
I finally understand now.
I hope you're reading this...
I love you not for who you're but who I am when I am by your side...
I hope in time to come, we'll have the chance to meet again,
Who knows, maybe by then you're ready to accept me.
I will wait for you as long as the sun rises and sets.
As long as you are still Vivien Chua Pei Ying.
As long as your birthday is still on 30th august every year.
I want to love you like i never loved before.
You push me away but i still stay.
I will miss you.

Tears seal this post just as my heart is sealed my you.

42 more days

2009-09-18T17:07:00.003+08:00

Yep.
42 more days till i leave the school.
I promised her that i will stay if she tells me personally.
but i doubt she's seeing this.
I will miss her the most,
followed by Janice, Winnie, Jiayu, kuanyee, Darren Tan, Guang Yuan, jing wen, Yu sheng
Next will be all the friends i made this two years.
Anyway,
thanks for being such good friends for me.
well esp darren tan.
he so cute.
lols.
well maybe i'll recieve some goodbye gifts.
Well so far, there's 99% chance of me changing la.
and jermyn don't worry.
I'll make sure i do my job before i leave.

Here's a list of things i want some people to do

Janice Teo Xinyi: I want you to continue being a good chairperson even after I leave. Don't let the unexisting me affect your performance. I may be watching you guys perform. Help me Take care of Vivien too.

Jermyn: Stay happy

Darren Tan: Come my house stay!!!!!

Guang Yuan: Grow more hair!!!

TO THE REST OF THE PEOPLE: Due to lack of desire to continue i shall just say this.

Sometimes, you only learn to cherish after you lose.
I will cherish all of you.

This will only happen if i have to change. Whether i will change or not, you can call me at 94300723, lols on christmas. Then i will confirm. more people call less i will change.... lols.
:)

Her.

2009-09-08T20:58:00.000+08:00

I think of you day and night yet you just take me as a friend. You are like the pages in a book, like the ice cream in my box, like the sweetness in my sweet. Without you, everything would be incomplete in my life. When i think of you, my heart shatters into a million pieces. Your words weigh a world in me. I hope you're seeing this cause this is what i really feel about you.

2009-06-09T20:59:00.001+08:00

So it has to be someone else and not me...
expected...
i suck...
u would nvr choose me...
u nvr see me...
or u do its just that...
u dont accept me...
painful... haiz

nvr me nvr me

SCIENCE PAPERS ARE KILLING ME!!!

2009-05-07T20:58:00.002+08:00

WTH!!!
today got physics paper.
which is hard.
but the chem paper was so
damn F easy!!!!
HAHA..
not action la
i think maybe will get 40++ out of 50
or at least a 35++.
physics get 25 i happy liao la
alot of people gg liao la.
nvr complete.
haha
wonder how some people in 2E1 did
my good frenz in 2E3 and 2E1!
Work hard!!
Darren tan dont work tooo hard la.
i wan beat u
haha.
Good luck to

2E1
Vivien
Wan Zhen
Li Hui

2E3
Everybody!!
Esp
Darren tan Tuan Tuan
Yumin
Ys
Yusheng
GY
and many many more

2E4
JinGWeN
Adalia
odelia
yuxin
amanda

yea think tats all
and gd luck to the sec 4 for your
"O" levels
the forbidden subject
haha
BYE!!@@@@@#!#@!#$#%!%#!#

I lost

2009-05-05T18:28:00.002+08:00

I lost...
Lost u
cuz of my idioticness

Exams!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-05-01T13:19:00.002+08:00

exams are coming
we are dying
exams are coming
we are studying
exams are coming
we are tired

'exams are comin' by Terence Tang

haha lousy poem
anyways.
i have started plannin for post exam activicties,
haha kiasu ma

Schedule on 15th may
(first day after exams)
6.30- wake up
7.30-watch tv
8.00-wash up
8.15-eat breakfast
9.00-get ready
10.00-go jurong meet her
11.00-meet her
11.15-go lot1 meet yusheng and darren
12.00-eat lunch
12.45- buy tickets for movie
1.00-watch movie
2.45-come out
3.00-play primeval hunt and other games at arcade
4.00-buy snacks
5.00- go back jurong
5.30- reach her house
6.00- 'zao'

tats my schedule!
anyone interested can contact me to join me.
SEC2S only
no old age people like clarence, jordan!
kuan yee, winnie, sharon, clara, etc all cannot!
no offence!
haha
bye!....

ANOTHER DAY!

2009-04-26T20:11:00.002+08:00

WENT
to yu sheng house to practice 4 tml music test at 9!
aft that.
went to play arcade with him!
28 bucks gone.
Then went to buy a mc chicken.
WA XIAN
got chio bu there leh.
BUT she definetely more chio
Then went to jurong.
Wandered aimlessly for like 2-3 hours then went to wait for her.
2 HOURS down the drained.
Got 收货 la
got to hold her hand. haha
dont have much to say le lah.
BYE!!!!

Doomsday!

2009-04-21T20:57:00.002+08:00

Doomsday pic

Reached home today,

and the first thing i did was to,

read the newspaper on the doomsday article,

OMG!

It looks so true and there are alot of buzz about it on the internet

dont belive?

go search for solar flares 2012 doomsday and u will see.

OMG la

Even NASA has confirmed it la.

OMg wat are we going to do.

I haven 'Do' it leh. still got about 4 years before can 'do' it leh.

Haiz.

Anyways back to the topic.

So scared

OMG!!!!!!!

anyways

xian lor

Xian. Another boring day.

2009-04-20T21:40:00.002+08:00

Hi people,
Its just another plain old boring day.
Think you people must be feeling the same.
Haiz.
Though,
In the afternoon,
it got better,
cuz i went to marcus house to play hi Wii.
Damm fun la.
Though i was a noob at it,
its was still fun.
After that,
Went to find her.
Arghh, was the worst!
Waited for an hour plus,
only left like a bus trip.
Haiz,
so dissappointed.
Went home, ate my dinner.
Xian,
Haha,owned my gramps
loser!
Xian, still doing prep work for art.
Why so difficult!
go die la!
I think should stop here.
Xian!
bye!

180409. So happy today!

2009-04-19T18:27:00.002+08:00

I am so happy cuz someone agreed to be in my family. Ahh so happy! I love you loads. kuan yee mama, i think u noe hu i talkin about.ahh.i sux at blogging. its like every post is so short. haiz
bye

AAC

2009-04-18T17:22:00.002+08:00

Xian .
AAC is so tiring.
8 oclock then go home arghh.
My little leonard,horsey and auntie clarence is graduating!
So is sharon, cheanpin, desiree, limin, sueyi,wiliam,and many which i cannot remember.So sry!
Haiz.Xian.
Will miss u all!

SYF is finally over!

2009-04-18T16:51:00.002+08:00

We Got A SILVER!!! Haha! we are putting stress on CO!! Guang Yuan IS SO Stressed!Haha.
We went to eat swensens to celebrate.
I ordered chicken baked rice.
EUww.
Limin desiree and yuxin amanda all copy me eat the samething.
Xian.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!

Day Before SYF!!!

2009-04-15T20:40:00.000+08:00

Arghh! feel so stress.its syf tml and i stll dont think we r prepared
wats this?
although we perform well today for practice, i could still hear some problems here n there.
Haiz
tml is the big day yet dont noe wat to do.xian

Choir WE MUST WORK HARD!!

2009-04-12T21:15:00.000+08:00

Our choir used to have team spirit, at least that's what i saw when i first joined choir, but now,it looks as if we r breaking apart.
Come on guys , like wat sharon always say, we r small but powerful.
Lets all work hard and win at least a silver!!!

On to the singapore flyer

2009-04-12T20:57:00.000+08:00

Well , I got on the flyer today. Though it was slow, it was quite meaningful. On my way in it, I was smsing Sharon. Arghh! I am so jealous of her. She gets to buy the LG Ice cream which is so expensive and cool. Damnit!

First post

2009-04-12T20:50:00.000+08:00

Hi's to all out there. It's been a long time since I blogged. Well not in this one but in another. I know my blog looks dead but will try to change it to be better.

Yours faithfully,
Destroyer